Celebrating family

The whole fam came to our house today.  Initially, I think it was a just because kind of event.  Then, it sort of turned into an impromptu early birthday party for my nephew, Jacob. I can't believe he is going to be 4 years old.  Wow.  It wasn't complete, though, as I was missing my sister Teri and her family.  But we managed to have a good time anyway.  We had yummy Thai food and tasty birthday cake (of which I have the left overs to snack on tomorrow).  All in all, a very good day!

Just because....

I am too tired or sleep deprived to think of anything witty....

Back to being a creature of the night....

Today is my last day of normalcy.  Tomorrow, I start night shift again.  I love to work night shift.  Less stress, less management, less visitors, more just me and my patient and the occasional doctor or resident.  But, I also like to sleep.  Preferably in the day time.  And although I have worked night shift off and on for many years, I wonder if I still have it in me now.  I choose nights because it was part time and the night differential will more than make up for losing a day a week.  So, keep your fingers crossed that all goes well.  It is going to be a long weekend.  I am in for a 3 day stretch.  I am still on orientation.  I have to do 8 orientation shifts...maybe less if I can talk them into it.  I just want to get in there and do my job and ask questions when I need to.  But (*sigh*), I have to play by the rules.  So if any of you wake up in the middle of the night, think of me! :)  At least Olivia will be sleeping while I am at work.  That helps make this even better.  I won't miss that much while I am gone!!!

Who is that looking back at me in the mirror...?

Well, it has happened.  I turned 40.  I really don't feel much different than I did at 18, other than I can't run 5 miles just for the hell of it, and my joints creak a lot more.  And maybe I see a few lines on my face that weren't there when I was 18, but who can be sure, right?  I can say one thing, my daughter keeps me on my toes, and hence I tend not to think about how old I am...much.  But, when she is 20...I will be 60.  Arrrgh!!  That right there would be enough to drive someone crazy.  So, I will just continue to dive into figuring out my new job, continue to wait yet another week for the cable to be installed, and love my daughter as much as possible and try not to think about the age factor.  For now...  :)

It was definitely as hard as I thought it would be....

Today, I went back to work and left my daughter all day long for the first time in 4 months.  I was a wreck running around the house, trying to get everything together and not forget anything.  Moving has been chaotic and the house is full of boxes and things not in their rightful place.  Olivia was smiling this morning, so cheerful and pleasant after yesterday's complete meltdown basically all day long.  I promised myself I wouldn't cry, yet, as I ran down the stairs to get to the car, I have tears streaming down my face.  I know it will get easier, but it seems awful right now.  But, I lived.  And she lived.  And she and Jeff had a great day.  Tomorrow she goes to Grandma Alana Hill's house.  I think I might be more stressed tomorrow, since she is not at home with her dad or I.  But I suspect hospital orientation, day 2, will bore me enough that I will be lulled into complacency.